I had a day session booked at my local tattoo shop, I had over two months to prepare myself for this.
The evening before my anxiety kicked in real bad and I was trying to find a way out of it, I wanted out and wasn't bothered about losing the money I had paid out.
On the day I was still trying to get out of it , this time I was blaming my clothing... didn't want to wear this and didn't wanna wear that because I felt fat and ugly. I started to panic, felt over emotional and couldn't calm myself down.
See I don't like walking in to shops, pubs or anywhere public where there are people, I feel like every one is judging me, staring and talking about me. ( I know this isn't the case, just my old brain kicking up a fuss).
After some persuasion from my partner I called a cab and headed out.
I can't thank my tattooist enough, she made me feel so welcome and relaxed. We got talking about mental health and also my experiences which affected my own mental health.